Tuesday, October 2, 2012

Just an Update

Yeah, yeah, yeah.  I know - it's been a while.  I've been thinking about updating this blog for several weeks now, but the truth is I really don't have anything new to write about.  Here is the short version of the last month and a half:

Trialed wheat.  Passed, I guess.  Stopped supplementing with formula in her bottles, Cutie Pie started walking and stopped eating, lost a whole pound (according to our at-home scale), started with the formula in her bottle again. 

 Now you're up to speed.  In all seriousness though, it has been a very frustrating month.  Although there is really nothing new to report, it's because I feel like we aren't making any progress! She did pass wheat, but (like everything else) she won't eat it.  Yesterday was a cold, rainy, yucky day so big brother and I made some sunbutter chocolate chip cookies.  They were healthy and DELICIOUS.  No sugar, whole wheat flour, dark chocolate chips, sunbutter, all sorts of goodness.  Cutie Pie had fun carrying one around with her, but I don't think a single crumb made it into her mouth.  We've tried crackers, pretzels, pancakes, muffins, and she pretty much refuses all of it.  The only thing she has developed an affinity for is goldfish crackers.  She asks for them by name - "feeeeshhhhh"  but if you give them to her she might lick a couple of them and might eat the tail off of one.  I think she just likes the salt. 

Cutie Pie is almost 15 months old and still is pretty much exclusively breastfed (well bottle fed with pumped breastmilk).  For example, tonight for dinner she ate one grape and one McDonalds french fry.  And that was the biggest meal she ate all day.   It's hard to get much trialing done when you can't get her to eat anything.  I am beyond frustrated and I have no clue where to go from here.  ::sigh::  And she is loosing weight now too.  She was up to a whopping 21 pounds on our scale here at home, but just last week I weighed her again and she was back down to 20.0 pounds.  :(  That meas we are at a total gain from her 12 month check-up of 2 oz.  TWO ounces.  We go back to the pediatrician in a few weeks at which point he told us last time that if she isn't eating he wants her to be evaluated by an occupational therapist for her eating issues.   I feel like a total failure here as a mom.  I mean seriously I must be failing her somewhere along the line if I can't even get her to EAT.  If she is this set against eating now, what do I do when she is a teenager and thinks she's fat?  (Although at this rate that is never going to happen....)  Plus, my family likes to eat.  I'm from a family full of foodies.  Is this just the universe's idea of a cosmic joke giving me a child that doesn't like food?   I'm not seeing the humor, Mr. Universe.... 

1 comment:

  1. I don't think you're a mama failure at all. Livvy hasn't had feeding issues like that, but you and I both know there are plenty of FPIES kiddos that have. AND I've also heard so many great stories about how amazing OT was for their FPIES kiddo. Needing help now and again isn't a parenting fail; its a sign that you're human and are willing to do whatever you have to for your child to thrive ;)